Baby, It's a Life Changer

Ever since I was a young girl, I wanted to be someone who made a positive difference in the world. I was eight years old when I declared I wanted to be a missionary nurse. The next year I wanted to be an executive secretary like my aunt who had a top floor office with a great view overlooking a never-ending green lawn. Then after my Dad gave me a tour of the Bell Labs facility in Murray Hill, NJ where he worked; I felt I should be an engineer or computer technologist.


After I graduated high school, I felt disconnected from those dreams. I worked minimum wage jobs and eventually landed a job as a receptionist. From there, I worked up the corporate ladder to the Information Technology department. It was an intoxicating feeling helping others who had no idea how to help themselves or their computers. Most days I enjoyed going to work because most of the employees were great people. Those that weren't so great made for some interesting days of which stories maybe in future posts. I even met the love of my life and now husband there.




When life seems to be going really good, I should know to prepare myself for the downhill roller coaster ride. After all, what goes up must come down. The rug was pulled out from under our department's feet when our supervisor told us someone had to be laid-off. This idea was inconceivable to us as not only were we the only department in our office whose employees all got along, we were a well-oiled machine at problem solving. Eventually someone was told to go home but God had predestined that day for me to take the lay-off for my co-worker. In so many ways, taking that lay-off was not only a gift for my friend but for me as well.

At home on unemployment, I took the time to consider starting afresh. My good friends at Regional Personnel took care of me and found a permanent full-time job. It should be noted here that the woman who owns Regional was the same person who got me the receptionist job all those years ago. When I went to Regional, I had no idea she owned the business. Kinda ironic in a very cool way, huh? Again, God had a plan that for me was totally unexpected. Three months into the new job I found out I was pregnant. After I announced this to my supervisor, I was let go due to "having to downsize for company financial problems." A bit too coincidental, don’t you think?

After I had my son, Nathaniel, I felt like I had jumped into the deep end of a cold pool. I thought I could never be a mom since I felt I didn't have the nuturing qualities it takes to be a good one. It took me a while before I could find my way back to the surface and then I felt like I was treading to survive. Then my neighbor, Jen, came by with some information about a moms’ group. I read over the pamphlet and was not really interested in joining the group but then I saw a small paragraph about a Bible study group. God has always been a solid compass in my life and I realized He was what was missing in my life. We will be going into our fifth study as of this posting and I have never felt more grounded, peaceful and connected to God.

During these five years of being at home, I have picked up hobbies I had long forgotten, gained new ones and honed my cooking skills. My life has been remade into a somewhat domestic queen which I NEVER planned or dreamed of. This blog is my outlet of this new life. My hope is that someone out there will read what I have learned and experienced in life and will help them in some positive way.